last year, i’ve made a wish on 11:11 that i would just die already for 2 months almost straight, but then she gave me something to live for, but now shes giving it to someone else, and i’ve gone back to those wishes, waiting for it to come true.
“i’ve really got to get away from it all. school, friends,my family..i seriously need to momentarely dissappear from it all, everyday consist of stress from every angle.i hate that everybody knows i’m easy to talk to, because then they start to bring their misery apon me and expect me to fix it for them, don’t get me wrong i like helping people put a smile on their faces, but i’m tired of putting smiles on their faces when mines is fake.half of the fucking time i can’t hide it, and some people see right through it, especially the ones i don’t want to see it. and my family is constantantly trying to shape me into perfection when in reality its killing me. it’s never anything good with them, it’s either they are complaining about something i do, or something they want me to do, nothing is ever in between.and school? fuck school, i fucking hate it, i’m tired of it, i’m tired of the work. i know i’m slacking but they’re high fucking expectations is whats causing the slack. ugh i need to get away from my love life which is complete shit, no wonder i was such a whore, it was supposed to be so i wouldn’t go through hell. anyway i need to get away, seriously. everybody is full of shit everywhere i go. i wish i could just run away to another country for a few months, maybe when i come back i’ll be happy.”—
“it’s weird thinking about everything you been through with someone, and they are right in front of you. it’s worse when they notice that blank look on your face, and you know they know something bad is on your mind.”—